Stream of Thoughts.

I hate bearing the burden of an unfinished paper.
Not to mention the unpleasant gloom of an "unfinished" exam.

And the fact that Winter is FINALLY in the air is not helping. Not the slightest.

I am desperate to go out and embrace the spirit of Christmas.
But all I can do now is stay put at home and struggle to concentrate on the last piece of paper for this semester.

Such a bummer.
URGH!

On a side note, I'm utterly looking forward to having a crazy-magical-cam-whoring time at HK Disney this Thursday.
LOL!
Can't wait, can't wait, can't wait!!!

What more than a magical day at "Disneyland - Sparkling Christmas" to lift the moods and celebrate the "soon-to-end" semester?



And I think I'm addicted to Mariah Carey's "I Stay in Love".
I've been hitting that repeat button each time the song stops on my computer.

And Jason Mraz is also pretty good. Surprisingly.
It's not the type of R&B music I usually like but it gives me a completely peaceful feeling after I've listened to it.
Such an amazing voice.

And I think I'm spending too much time on MySpace.com listening to music. LOL!!

Amazement.

I've been anticipating the Beijing Olympics since the word got out that it'll be fantastic this year.
All the secretive rehearsals...the excited atmosphere...the rumours of who'll be the last one to pass the Olympic torch...
Everything's got me to look forward to the 2008 Beijing Olympics greatly.

And after watching the Opening Ceremony for 4 hours...
I must say, China is AWESOME!!
Woot!! Woot!!
I'm in absolute AWE at the creativity and the tidiness of all the people!!

The Opening Ceremony was utterly amazing!!
Very extravagant, very appealing to visual, very sensational!!!
(It was kinda sad that there wasn't much explanation though...it would have been better if there was a narrator or something...)

All the same...
Can I say, tonight...
I'm truly PROUD to be a Chinese!!!!

Not so part of the group.

I figured out it's not the question of "fitting-in"...but the question of "belonging-in" in the group.

From experience....I understand friendship needs time to build up and deepen...
To fee like "part of" something is important...

You can't try too hard if it's just different.

It's not the same.

thoughts @ International Summer School

Those fun times...

I left my heart...in SD.

From the day I started packing for home, I've pictured in my head countless times how it'll be like leaving San Diego...leaving the States.

I knew I'll be saying countless goodbyes and meeting a lot of people again for the one last time.
I was prepared to walk on streets, cruise on freeways and visit places, knowing I wouldn't be doing that again in the close future.

However, the funny thing is, no matter how prepared you think you may be, when the time comes for you to finally go, everything just happens a lot faster than you comprehend.
Everything moves like a fast-forwarding tape.
Until you realize it's happening, it has already happened, and you are already gone.

People always say, treasure what you have when you still have it or you'll regret when it's gone.
I think I made the most of my year...and I treasured every single minute of it. However, the inevitable end just makes treasuring all the memories...bittersweet~

I miss waking up to a window of fluttering green leaves and clear blue sky...
& falling asleep to the sounds of the night outside the window.

I miss walking to campus, dreading a long day ahead...
& walking home from campus, looking forward to "Chicken and Vegetables" for dinner.

I miss the times spent in the Love library finishing up a piece of reading for the next class...
& the hours spent at the gym, taking a break from all the studying.

I miss stopping by Peabody's for a White Chocolate Mocha...
& walking into Starbucks in the afternoon for another "coffee" boost.

I miss the nights when Anna and I can make SOMETHING out of NOTHING when grocery runs out...
& still not getting tired of chicken and vegetablesfor lunch or dinner even after we stock up at Ralphs :P

I miss the free afternoons on Tuesdays and Fridays...
& knowing that I can go to one cute Japanese girl in particular to ease my boredom... :)

I miss crawling into bed with Anna fast asleep in the bed next to me...
& knowing the alarm will be going off 10 times the next morning as we both struggle to wake up.

I miss the times when Robert drops by to ask what plans we had for the weekend...
& the way we never know or seem to decide until the last minute. Haha.

I miss dressing up when we go out...
& the way we can always have fun by just being together.

I miss how we can enjoy a quiet night home doing nothing but watching a movie...
& how we can always have fun when we decide on something to do on the weekends.

I miss the place where the sun always comes out shining by noon even when it was overcast in the morning and the sky was grey.

I miss the campus that was so beautiful you don't mind spending another hour of the day in it.

I miss the housing that brought so many international students together and numerous friendships.

I miss...
...the apartment which brought 4 girls together for one great semester...
...the fire alarm which sounds almost every time you cook if you are not careful... :P
...the kitchen, which bears witness to the countless dinner rendezvous...
...the bathroom, where numerous dressing up sessions were mirrored into the mirror...
...the room, where secrets were shared, complaints were launched, gossips was "gossiped", plans were made, party photos were uploaded, and laughter concealed...

I miss so many things...but most importantly, I miss YOU, all of you in San Diego,
who made the whole year special by being there, and giving me the best gift ever - friendship.


I've been home for 5 days, moving on to the 6th...
...but I still think I left my heart in San Diego...=(

About to go home...

Spring Break過後，
回歸San Diego的懷抱...
加州陽光再次打在臉上...很溫暖...



With Spring Break ending, and me going back to school again...
I realize that my exchange is also drawing to a fast close.
I have a little more than 5 weeks left in the States.
要回家的感覺越來越強烈了...

這個semester，好像更融入美國的生活...
Everything comes merely out of habit and things around are dealt with familiarity.
香港發生的，除了家事...I seem to know a lot less.

Hong Kong seems far away...
& I feel like I've missed out on a lot of stuff.
But this time round, I'm comfortable in the place I am.

Life goes on for everyone...you can't expect time to stop and wait for you just because you are not around.
An occasional call or email with friends is all I need...
& of course, there's Facebook, which I must say, is an utterly AMAZING way to keep in contact.

So to speak, I no longer feel the nostalgia I use to have last semester nor the strong yearnings of wanting to know what's going on back there.
I like the life I'm living here...and it almost feels as if I could get use to it.

However, as the feeling of going back grows stronger,
I begin to fear that I'm getting much too used to a laid-back kind of life.

The reason this exchange is so appealing is because I get to meet new people, experience a different culture and travel around.

If the States was really the place I grew up in...
I'm pretty sure the reality of life kicks in every once in a while...
you get pressure because of deadlines and school work...
you stress over grades and essays.
And you certainly don't get to travel around every other holiday...

In short, I believe
I wouldn't be enjoying life as much.

However, however, I still think the way people here lead their lives is more appealing.
To work hard & play hard...
Less time in front of the computer...more time out at the beaches...
To enjoy the little pleasures of life more...
Oh well, why shouldn't they anyway when they are living in San Diego, the city with the best weather in the States?

That said, I would also like to say that I simply ENJOY speaking in English 24/7...
I fear that I'm forgetting my Cantonese...and my Chinese is seriously deteriorating...but, whatever.
Give me English anytime!

5 weeks left before reality check...
What a bummer...

I actually fear going home...

A cool Girls' Night Out...

Movie marathon on Valentines' Night...
Such a blast...

From "Definitely, maybe"
...to...
"Step Up 2"



The sweetest romantic comedy ever - "Definitely, maybe"


and the movie which gets you all hyped up - "Step Up 2"


Such a cool night...
Girlfriends are the best!!!

Back to school for the 2nd semester...

這個學期
功課變難了
Crashing classes增添了不少壓力
還不知道該選哪些課目
拿不定主意

選擇自己有興趣的?
還是有可能transfer credits的?
即使有興趣...功課卻很多很難...
偏偏兩課又是同一個時間...
進退兩難耶...>.<''

每天如常地返學上課
上個星期
連續七小時
我真的佩服自己的毅力

...還好不是長期這樣，否則我必定瘋掉!!


Crossing my fingers and hoping for the best...