it's the scary unknown
the vast emptiness
silent
engulfing
Can't you see
been caught up too long
lingering
hoping
Unexplainable
irrational
I've reached the bottom
waiting
Pause.
I don't want to fall
made up my mind
it's all or nothing at all
Stop.
because it wasn't
not even merely
a thing I never had
something that wasn't meant to be
***
Somedays I just keep pretending
That you'll stay
Dreaming of a different ending
I wanna hold on
But it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had
I keep tellin' myself
Things can turn around with time
And if I wait it out
You could always change your mind
Like a fairy tale
Where it works out in the end
Can I close my eyes
Having you lying here again
Then I come back down
Then I fade back in
Then I realize
It's just what might have been
You don't see me
You don't feel me like I feel you.
***
It's a long time since I last blogged here...
Online blogging never really did seem to work out for me...
I either think it's not appropriate to post...or I'm just too lazy to write...
But one thing never changes...
Writing helps to ease my mind and soul...
